Still messed up.
My thoughts are still pretty messed up, I am not sure if I am supposed to continue to dream of meeting people I will never have the chance to meet. And on the other hand, I am not really a good friend. Sometimes, I thought making friend is simple but then it became complicated and make me lose two friends. But now, is making friend simple or not as simple as I thought it is?
All I know is that I want to live my own life, with the people I like. Even though I am still thinking what does it means by “Living your life”.. I am not going to pretend to like some people when I don’t. It gets really tiring over the period of time and it will make me feel like a bad person. I am going to rearrange my friend’s list and I might sound like a depressed girl but I am definitely not. Because having a few good friends is better than having many friends which you will have to pretend while talking to them.
As for school, I want to get good grades again, it is getting worst each week. From a B to a C to a D grade, makes me feel..regret. I will definitely do better in semester two.
Happy birthday!! I hope you know you are an amazing guy. You never fail to make my day with your daily updates + stunt + your friends (: I love you x2 to the power of 1000.
